Amy Lynn

Im pregnant.

I just feel so good about everything in my life right now. EVERYTHING is exactly where/when I want it to be/happen. I have more time for friends since the breakup and even though I thought I was going to be more upset about it....I could honestly care less. If having a girlfriend just "wasnt as much fun as [he] thought it was going to be" then fuck him. The only reason it wasn't "fun" is because I was so unhappy with him and he was tired of me always complaining that he was a shitty boyfriend. So now I dont have to deal with a completely onesided relationship. Granted I was pretty upset the first couple of days but I just feel so free and happy. And I've been having so much fun with old/new friends. School is almost over (3 more weeks!!) and I am doing fantastic. Still not sure how I am going to come up with a grand to pay for summer session. I filled out a request for a loan so we shall see. I've been talking with this guy named Karl whom I have had the biggest crush on since the first night we met. But I was still with Brian so I never really said anything. Then Brian and I broke up and Karl and I have been hanging out every chance we get. He's wonderful. He's so nice to me, and takes me on cute dates, and he makes me feel so good about myself. Just super nice guy. I don't think I am ready AT ALL for a relationship again but we are having a good time together. I am going over to his place in Melbourne tonight we are going out to dinner then watching a movie. I'm really excited thats why I'm posting in LJ. Not to mention that my work keeps taking myspace away from me so this is the next best thing. That really pisses me off but....whatever.

I think I need to reevaluate the people I surround myself with. Some are wonderful and I wouldn't trade them for the world. Others are nothing more than self absorbed spoiled brats. I have too much going on in my life right now and my free time is so so so precious that I need to eliminate people that are too needy. Who feel like because we are friends I must drop everything that I am doing to do whatever it is that they feel like doing. No more. I know I say it a lot because I am ALWAYS the one to run and apologize so there is no more animosity, but I could care less at this point. Don't be surprised if you don't here from me in awhile.

One of the people backed out so I need one or two more people. The cost of trip expenses are 250 a person (includes gas and hotel room) plus whatever spending money you need. I am bringing about $600

COME ON! Its fucking Los Angeles...you know you want to come!

I am going on a road trip to Los Angeles for Spring Break in 18 days, I was thinking about selling six of my old prom dresses at 50 a peice to make some extra cash. Anyone have any idea where I could do that at? I was going to do ebay but there are about 300 prom dresses on there that NO ONE has bid on so I dont want to take my chances and be out money. Thanks in advance!

Well...it's not "new" anymore it is about a month old. It is on my inner bicep I guess is the best way to describe it. I am in LOVE with it <33333333333
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To fucking live for myself for once. I will no longer feel bad for not doing something that I don't want to do. I will no longer give into my fathers bullshit time and time again. Everything I do in 2006 is going to be because I want to. No one's logic or ideals are going to persuade me to do anything other than being me. I am just so fed up with people getting pissed off at me because I don't want to do what they want to do. I have a life thanks. I have responsibilities and obligations that do not revolve around you. Sometimes, I don't know why I let people walk over me. But this is truly a prime example of my new tattoo. And I don't need people like this in my fucking life anymore. Getting me upset over fucking nothing.

I've started to read the Sword of Truth series by Terry Goodkind. I was a little indisisive about reading a fantasy novel but Brian said it was a fantasic series so I thought I would start reading. About 10 pages into the book I couldn't put it down. It is excellent. I am excited to finish this book and start on the next.

I have been pretty happy lately. Nothing really going on EXCITING but nothing I can complain about either. I think that Brian's feelings for me are changing. I have a strange feeling that we aren't going to be together much longer. Not sure why...

Ibar tonight. I am in the mood to drink and celebrate about the up and coming holidays...and that I have no work on Friday! I will be beyond intoxicated I have a feeling.

I guess I haven't really updated in awhile. When things are good though you don't really need to right? I guess I have a serious problem. I thought it was just me being stupid and irrational but the more people I talk to about it the more they agree with me. So here goes my usual boy problem:

A couple of nights ago Brian told me that he had this really vivid dream about this girl he knew from high school. So after work two days ago he drove to WinterSprings HighSchool where her mom works. Come to find out he transfered to SeminoleHighSchool. When he went there she wasn't there either she was at Macaroni Grill. So he drove there and she wasn't there either. So yesterday he went back to Seminole High School and got his friends number. And I guess they talked on the phone yesterday. Whatever no big deal right.
Well this morning....
He tells me that he wants to go up to South Carolina next weekend to visit old friends. At first I was upset because I have 5 DAYS off and we don't really get to see eachother besides going to bed at night. And he's going to be gone all of xmas vacation to Wisconsin with his family. Then he was like well Im going to see Kelly (girl, he got her number from her mom), then go to georgia one day then south carolina then be home. And I was like WTF! All of the sudden you talk to this girl on the phone and you are going to see her?????????

So this is my problem...should I be weirded out by this?
1. He adimently tracked this girls mom down to get her number
2. Didn't ask me if I wanted to go on this little trip with him
3. Going to see this girl that he hasn't seen in 8 years because she was in his dream?

Should I be upset? I feel so sick to my stomach, I feel like I am going to get sick. I asked two people my mom and clif if this is something that is normal and my mom said that it seems shady (didn't use those terms) and Clif said basically the same thing.

I confronted him about it on how it's really weird and I don't feel right about it but he says I am over reacting.

HELP!!!!